RIP

So I'm wondering why everyone is dying this millennium? Is this a sign? or what? But anyways it's a shocker, like seriously, of all people why Michael Jackson. Okay I don't want to talk about his death anymore cause It's depressing.
I'm not going to change the subject fully, but I'm going to converse slightly about that topic. When you get older, don't you kind of realize how things get more dramatic? For me it's like that. I may have done more dramatic things as I was younger, but nowadays drama is catching up to me.
Honestly, I'm not at a good position with my mom right now, feels as if i don't even have a mom..it's worse than it was before. I know i spent months wishing for something i never had, but when I had what I wished for, i certainly don't want it anymore. Life was better off without her. Her presence disturbs me, not disrespectfully, but more in a hurtful matter. It's hurtful knowing that she's my mom and I'm feeling that way, but it's at a personal reason.
But anyways whatever, I'm not in any mood to discuss my personal problem about my mom so I'll continue this topic some other time. &&RIP MICHAEL.